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I had been standing in front of the mirror for about 15 minutes and I heard mom shouting,"You're late!!!" I looked at the time and yes, it was crazy late. I rushed as I picked up my bag and keys and grabbed a bite while running towards my moped. I somehow managed to pull it out of the parking, carelessly pressed autostart button repeatedly and unnecessarily until it started. I raised the accelerator and I could hear fading voice of mother telling me to drive slow.
I drove and drove on those uninteresting straight roads until I reached the college. As the main entrance of the college appeared from the distance, I started feeling nervous.
" First day! I hate first day! Sit idle in the room full of strangers judging each other, try to make some friends (Yea right! Like its that easy! ), smile to every new person you accidentally make an eye-contact with! Phew! Lot of work to do today!"  I could not think of anything better than this, and i saw the guard at the entrance asking me for my I-Card. I took it out of my bag, and he allowed me to go inside.

There it is! The parking area, filled with people, so full of them! I could not hear myself think in all that chitter-chatter and noises of engines. The place was a clear validation of what i studied in school, India and its population. It was crazy! So many of people. For a moment, it felt like I am never going to find a place to park in this place. 'Finally, a place!', my brain pointed me towards an empty spot. I quickly pushed myself in the spot, honking loudly in that chaos that even gave me a headache.
 I had parked at the very end of the parking, with almost no covering over my vehicle, along very improperly parked sportsbikes.
I walked up, all alone, trying to figure out what to do and I saw people rushing towards one particular building. I followed all of them (that's the best i can do in such scenarios) and successfully managed to get to the notice board. The board displayed the students and their class-wise allotments.The place was so intense and crowded,  all i could see was the board written "NOTICE BOARD" over it. I pushed people, to get at least to a position from where I could read whats on. It took me five minutes to do so. I started scanning the list, and found me name in the section 'D'. 
"Why 'D'!?" I thought. I walked to the second floor and it felt like it was  thousands of stairs.
 As soon as I got in the class i realized that people were scanning me from tip to toe. I continued to walk with that awkward feel and felt a relief when I found a seat. After that, I was one of them, one part of the crowd that continuously scanned every single person entering inside until they felt embarrassed. 
I  just had started enjoying this 'scan and make'em awkward' game when I saw a very particularly handsome guy enter into the class. I loved the way he had trimmed his beard. So damn good this guy! 
He sat very far away from me, and almost out of my line of sight, so I decided to focus on the dull lecturer trying to control the class.
For the next few hours, the evil creature made us think about Series, Curves, functions and what not. Finally when there was no lecture for an hour, everybody was relived and started bonding with each other. I too had gotten very comfortable with my bench-mate. 
Everyone started leaving classroom to explore this very new place. I did not feel like getting out, and so I sat there with absolutely nothing to do. 
'Boys are dumb. All they look for is hot chicks. Nobody likes fat girls, or skinny. They want it perfect. Why do they want everything to be perfect? Well, lucky me! No matter how much I eat, i don't get fat!' I was so deeply engrossed that i could not see a human being approaching me.
"Hi! I'm Arjun, and you are? "
'Oh my god! The same hot fella! What do i do!!'
 My heart started beating so fast! I usually don't get in any trouble with words, and suddenly i could not remember my own name. 
"Umm.. Hello? What is your name? " He asked again. I saw his hand extended for a handshake. My dumb brain suddenly came to its senses, it somehow pulled out the thread that reminded me my name.
"swara.." 
I don't know why it happened, but i almost chocked while saying it. I said it with a voice of a dying person. 
"I'm sorry, what is it? "
"Ahem.. SWAARAAA"
"Oh! Nice name."
"Thankyou"
"So, Swara, Can I borrow your notebook for a while? I could not see anything from the place I am sitting."
"Okay."
' Okay? What is wrong with me! I should've said sure', I thought while giving him my notebook. He took it and went back to his seat. 
I turned back and observed him carefully. He indeed was very handsome.
'Way out of your league, lady!', I told myself.
'He looks very badass, or is it his beard making him look so? Whatever, why do i care? NO, I don't care at all. He must be having a girlfriend already. It doesn't even matter! He can have as many as girlfriends he can, I have no problem. I am out of question! Problem? I dont even know the guy! Why would i have a problem!!'
I saw my copy coming towards me as he chose to pass it along, instead of coming over. 
The guy threw me in an infinite loop of thoughts. I don't even remember how the rest of the lectures went.
When I got home, I had one brainstorming session wih me (haha, yay, me!) and drew some productive conclusions out of it.
'So what? I've got a crush. No big deal. Its just a guy. Maybe we'll be friends someday, Maybe not. but for all i need right now is not to choke while talking.'
So i took him out of my head(almost), and i went to bed, happy. Yes! happy.